Back from the Dr's

So I just got back from my doctor's appointment and am totally discouraged.  I had the Group B strep test, but they didn't/wouldn't do an internal so I have no idea if I've made any progress.  Apparently they won't do that until 38 weeks and right now I'm 36w3d by their calculations. My next appointment is Wed which would put me at 37w2d so I doubt I get an internal next week either.  My frustration is that most everyone I know that's recently had a baby started getting exams at 36 weeks. Exams can sometimes help speed things along, not to mention give the Mama piece of mind.  It would be helpful for me to know if my cervix has softened, and if I'm dilated at all.  Even if I'm not dilated, I want to know.  I hate the unknown.   I was told that they would NOT move my due date even though Baby Girl was measuring 11 days ahead at the last ultrasound- so we are back to July 18th for the date.  The midwife I saw today, Pat, told me that Baby Girl was only in the 68% percentile at the ultrasound- um, that sounds big to me.  And btw, do they mean that she was in the 68% of babies at 36 weeks which is what she was measuring at (and apparently isn't- she should have only been 34w3d) or if they go by 34w3d she must have been at least in the 90th percentile.  Ugh.

Pat told me that my body wouldn't make a baby that I couldn't deliver.  Oh, really? Is that why c-section's are at 33% in the US right now? She also told me that I could have trouble delivering a 6lb baby if the baby's position was wonky. So how having a 10lb baby would be any better is beyond me.  I think that the trouble here is that midwives are way too holistic in their practice, and T and I are just way more forward thinking and realistic.  With my next pregnancy, I plan to see only doctors, not midwives.

I told Pat how I'm up 3-4 times per night to pee, and that I am EXTREMELY uncomfortable at night.  The past week my ankles are swelling at night and I cannot get comfortable.  The baby feels so low like she is going to come out at any minute.  When I sleep my hips and ribs just ache.  :-( I even took a bath last night (for the first time throughout this entire pregnancy) to see if it would help with my pain and swelling.  No such luck.  Pat told me that I could take Tylenol PM or Unisom to sleep.  Really?! I cannot believe that they would condone a sleeping aide while pregnant.  I'm definitely NOT taking a sleeping pill.

After sharing the news of this appointment with T, he plans on being at all of my appointments from here on out.  He knows I get way too emotional and don't push back when I get told certain things.  I'm still just praying that Baby Girl comes on her own sometime early July.  I cannot even imagine being pregnant past their WRONG due date of July 18th.